The Modeling Fashion Pictures

Hello there, me again , just want to tell you guys something....... just got my pictures today !!!!! YAY!!!!!!!!!!!! A month ago i went to this nice lady who is from L.A and saw her pictures that she does on her web page and i got in touch with her to take some head shots and fashion pictures , of course i dont have that much money so she said she would do them for only 110.00 and i was like yes ill do it! I was scared that because it was so cheap it wouldnt turn out to look nice but to my surprise..... they did look so nice!!!!!! Now all i have to do tomorrow is get them ready for a few agencies and take one cdr to my one time talent agency to see if i can have a second chance . I believe in myself that i can do it because well, what do i have to lose right? Better now then never. also ehhhhh i dont feel so great ...... on the other hand my older sister Gio isnt coming to live with us anytime soon well.... not until May. I have a question when someone is in need and need somewhere to stay and lets say its you .... and someone is giving you a place to stay in the mean time, would you as a person in need set rules to a house that isn't yours? I know i wouldn't but that's how my sister is, she even said she wanted to go live with my brother Andrew i say go for it ... she wouldnt like it but i told her that if she wanted to come back home   me and our mom wouldnt go and pick her up from Kansas nope. She's 34 years old she should grown up get a job. My mom totally disagrees with me but you know what this is coming from a lady that can't even pick good freinds for her self and she's 62 !!!!! I told my sister like am telling my mom both of you never had my back and NOW you don't have mine. I have bipolar disorder and i suffer from deep depression i have my own demons to battle and i told both of them i have to look out for me from now on . FIRST ME, THEN IS ME, AND LATER IS ME i cant help people who when i need help wont help me and am sick i just want to be happy and try to make my life better for myself and i cant let people hold me back i cant. I dont know why every time these GROWN women need something it's Natalie this Natalie that am done ! DONE! Thats why am doing my acting and modeling and going back to school but as my doctor has told me do a little at a time Natalie take one thing at a time :) . Now for the next now since i moved back to the LA area i have to find a doctor for my needs with my meds and confusion i feel like i need help for that so to day am going back online to find one that would help me feel better because when you dont have health you cant do what you want to do ive been there so i know that for a fact. Well, i have to go now and clean my house because if i dont do it no one does MUAH!  BYE!!!! :P

The Problem

Wow ....... i feel emotionally drain ... i feel tired , a little mad, disappointed and a bit worried and stressed. My sister Gio got into another fight with her now ex boyfriend Ron . I guess he hit her and she called the cops and now she has no where to go. Oh wait she did had somewhere to go .... her ex husbands house , sorry i forgot to tell you about her first husband Fernando , very nice man but is sill a little mad about his ex wife cheating on him with Ron. Can you blame him? Well he was nice enough to let her stay there in the condition she can only stay there for six days. Then she said she wants or more likely has to come live with me and my mom ..... now shes going to be here making rules up for my house i don't like the idea of her doing that because she has no right to do that that's why no one likes her . Today in the morning i got a call from here saying that my cat and dog has to be outside um.... i told her you can be outside you cant set rules at a place you dont live at. My friends the reason her ex husband said she could only stay there for six days is because she told him he would be the one who had t move out so she can be there in his house with the kids ( he has the kids might i add) and he said nope am not moving out and still pay rent for you might as well be still married to you . BRB the phone is ringing. OMG!!!!!!! Guys ..... that was my sister ex husband he now said he doesnt want her in the house .........@@ EH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Why do i have to put up with her shit she's the one that does all the wrong things and we have to be there for her? To me that doesnt make any sense . She just started yelling at her kids about yes getting ready for school cuz it is kinda late..... her ex husband doesnt believe in yelling or hitting the kids when they need to be hit  he likes to calming talk to them which thats why they dont listen to him or my sister and do nothing these are the most lazy 14, 12 and two 9 yr olds in the world. Oh well not my kids thank god i dont have any....... i think am going to talk to my mom what just happened it 8:41 am right now so am going to wake her up and see what she thinks about this and see if she wants to get ready to go pick up my sister . Ill keep you posted.

The Interduction

Hello there am natalie not nat or alie its natalie am from southern california i have one older sister named gioconda but you can call her gio ( i think shes changing her name soon to mia ) who has been married, divorced, got ino another relationship with a man who isnt worth anything and should i say he's evil? Eh i never liked him since the first time i saw him he is a home whacker. His name is Ron but you can called him dick if you want ;) , my sister has been in this on and off relationship for the last 5 yrs. I also have 4 newfews and one niece from my sister's relationship and marriage. They range from 14 to 5. I also have a older brother named andrew i might not write too much about him because he now lives in kanasa and by the way he doesnt like me too much i have no idea why since i havent really talked to him since the age of 8..... he has also been married and devored and remarried and also has 5 kids 4 girls and one boy. Never really have met them though because the last time my brother was here he took out the whole family but me because for some reason he just doesnt like me .... ive never had done anything to him oh well i dont really care anymore ive gotten used to him. Then theres my dad Ruben , what a wonderful dad i had he was big , strong and for some reason people were very much afrid of him i dont know why because he was a very sweet man to us espeailly to me :) but unfornutaly my father died when i was just 17 he had cancer and there was nothing that could be done no one knew he was sick not even him . When people ask me about my father i always tell them he got up and left us because thats how it felt like he took off and to never return or be seen or heard from again. I never felt that kind of pain ever in my life it hurt and still hurts so much because i felt that out of all our us i needed him the most and still do i felt abonden , lost and sad beyond befievf . And then there's my mother marilyn she works hard and takes care of us shes a good mom but sometimes she doesn't want help from others but am here to always have her back. And last but not least me am about to go back to school in los angeles but its still in progress to have a job in fashion i love putting clothes together and being behind the camera in whats next in style .. love it!!!!!!!! Also am an actress and a model , i haven't really tried for modeling yet but i have been sign with a talent agency but want to further my career so am in the process of doing that too . So come with me as i pursuit my dreams and as i live my life day after day. Muah!!!! <3 Natalie